Love and Light Like a Freight Train
What does God’s love feel like? Is it like a tender whisper, a passionate cry, or a fast and powerful freight train? It can be all of those, but I can’t say that I ever believed it could be until I had a chance to experience it all in a new and unique way.
I recently took an intense course in channeling divine love as a way of healing others. I was born with a healing touch, which I now know is one reason why I have a way with animals, and I thought I might be able to do this. For many years, I experienced chronic pain that limited my ability to walk much. At my sickest, I couldn’t complete a simple grocery shopping trip because of the pain, or use my hands to type. In an open-minded search for anything that would stop the pain, I received Reiki one day and was amazed that, if only for a little while, my pain was reduced. I decided to learn how to do it myself, and so I began to learn about the healing power of energy and became eventually became a Reiki Master. I worked to clear out all my old baggage but a lot remained. I armored myself against the world emotionally, and this, I now know, influenced the pain I experienced.
Much like a radio can transmit/receive numerous (invisible) radio frequencies, I learned additional energy frequencies to receive and transmit. Each had different qualities, and I learned to intuit which energy was most appropriate at a given time.
I recently felt guided to take a new class that I thought would be more of the same. Boy was I wrong! In this new modality, we were taught how to channel pure, divine love, to the extent that we could. I wasn’t sure I could do it. Channel information or energy, sure, but Divine Love? How could I be capable of that? Luckily, the group helped me to learn and heal along the way.
When the instructor told me to find the way within me to release pure love, I envisioned a waterfall of love/light cascading from Source (or the Creator, God, Goddess, or whatever entity is responsible for this sweet mess of life) into my head and heart, then out my hands, heart, and breath. I was amazed how it felt. It felt like the Indian mystics described a kundalini experience, and much more.
How do you think the Creator’s love feels? I thought it would be like some delicate flower of energy or a compassionate glow. I was amazed when it felt like an almighty freight train coursing through my whole body. No part of me was untouched. This purposeful blast of heat and energy stripped away all that was not really me. That’s the only way I can describe it. All the pain, baggage, history, disappointment, and self-judgment just fell off of me in chunks and sheets until all that was left was who I really am. I was changed.
As my class practiced the technique on me, I continued to heal. I took the class
with the intention to help others, and in the process, I was helped immeasurably. Unable to defy this powerful engine coursing love through my body, my pain was gone. For the first time in 12 years, it didn’t hurt to walk. My joints were free of pain, and I was happy – something that I never thought possible.
Sometimes the Creator’s love felt like a golden freight train of power, at other times a silver waterfall that was powerful but more feminine and receptive. Then,
the love transcended to a pure, white light. I haven’t fully mastered this technique – I’ve just begun, but I have started to effect healing in others.
I cannot maintain that ecstatic state of mind continuously, but having seen who I really am, I can’t return to that place where I used to be. I will not limit myself anymore by my fears and self-criticism. I see pain in a whole new way and made peace with my past. I don’t want to speak of those days ever again; there is no need. I’ve developed new creative ideas that I can’t wait to work on. The tenor of this blog will change; I hope you are willing to change with me.