“The cure for loneliness is solitude.”
― Marianne Moore
I’ve found myself lonely for the first time in 30 years, as my youngest child hits the world running and my husband is frequently on business travel. It’s is often just me and the pets at home. So I dream up things to do and places to go, but I am usually disappointed. When I reach the event, I am find myself alone within a group. It seems so much harsher then, watching others with their friends or lovers, while I am alone. Yet when I am actually all by myself, I am settled. My companion is my oldest friend and frequent enemy, myself. In solitude, I am at peace, centered and still.
It sounds good until I come to the realization that it is heartfelt connection with others that keeps me going, and that isn’t anything I can do alone. It takes at least two. And so I’m trying to figure out how to make authentic friends, socialize, and get along. In some ways it’s effortless. In others, it’s much harder than it looks. But tonight, I’m settling for a book and a dog, perhaps with a parrot on my shoulder as well. They comfort and support me. Maybe another day I will brave the chaotic world; tonight I am at peace.
Such beautiful writing. I connected with what you wrote. I have the book, not the parrot 😉
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Thank you for sharing your heart. When I feel alone I’m so thankful to have my dog to cuddle with. I’ve always felt like it’s God’s way of telling me that I’m never alone 😊
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Yes, my companion animals are definitely God’s gift. They keep me going and tell me I’m ok.
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That’s wonderful! Life’s journey is so much sweeter with them 🐾🐾🐾
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I think I would be lost without their affection and comfort. My dogs, cats, and parrots want to be with me, even when everyone else is focused on their own lives.
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I feel the same about my pets. In fact in my humble opinion, they’re the best cure for anxiety and loneliness. God is so good to gift them to us. Enjoy 🐾
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Wish we lived closer…hope you had a lovely evening. Sometimes I prefer alone with pets as well.xo
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I wish you did, too.
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If you ever visit Colorado, look me up!
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I will! Thank you!
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Very wise words to SOIMF although I could never be lonely with a dog and a parrot!…Or even without them.
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Everything has its season, too. Perhaps you will find what you need in its season.
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I know there are more opportunities, and I enjoy them. It’s a real sense of freedom, but also disconnection.
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Great advice and gorgeous art!
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Thank you!
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Such good advice to your friend. The pictures are gorgeous. You do such wonderful composition. That is your calling as an artist.
You have my sympathy for adjusting to an absent family. It does take effort. You will find your way that makes you comfortable.
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Boy, I’ve got solitude down. I just moved to a foreign country where I don’t know a soul! Haha, I’ll die alone cause I’m obnoxious and annoying and nobody can stand to be around me for long. I guess I’m pretty used to solitude. 🙂
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Yes, I agree you do that well. But what about connection? You are wonderfully connected to the earth and her plant, animal, and insect inhabitants. If that’s enough for you, then I’m happy for you. I do that on a different scale by bringing in a bunch of pets to my home. But for me, it’s enough to get by but it isn’t quite enough for me to be happy. I thrive on meaningful work and deep human connection. So somewhere in there, people need to enter into it. That’s where it goes from easy to hard.
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Oh, and SOIMF, you are the only blogger I’ve actually met in person. And you aren’t obnoxious or annoying. You just forget that academia is a highly competitive environment full of insecure and immature students. They are not a good gauge of the full population. It’s like high school still in many ways (slackers, nerds, and cheerleaders all over again). You just need a more stable group to choose your friends from! You need to be around more farmers, engineers, and scientists to find an equal – someone who isn’t intimidated by or jealous of your Ph.D.!
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Haha I don’t think anybody is intimidated by me. And even my friends outside of academia find it hard to be around me much, I think. This is something I’ve learned over the past couple of years, as I’ve struggled to maintain even friendships I thought would last forever.
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For me, no friendship lasts forever; I change too much and so do they. Our lives change and our interests diverge. In some cases, they develop a dependence on my attention that I can’t continue (there was a huge trimming of the friend tree when I was in law school, for example). Sometimes the same happens for them. I’ve come to expect that no friendship lasts forever. And there may be a friend who was so hurt that you moved to Ireland that they sounded angry or aloof. Sometimes people are hurt when their friends leave. I’m sorry.
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Oh well, I don’t mind dying alone haha
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Who says you will be alone? You’ll likely have a friend or too there. Maybe even a partner. We change as we age, and sometimes the things we push away when we’re young are accepted when we’re older.
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