Growing

Farewell 2015

“The universe is full of magical things, patiently waiting for our wits to grow sharper.”

Eden Phillpotts

books

Collectively, this is my “to-be-read-stack.”

I rearranged my to-be-read stack of books today. I like to revisit each book and determine if it still fits me. If not now, maybe in the future? This year I found some books I’ve outgrown before I ever read them. These are non-fiction books that contained content that I mastered another way, so now, they’re a bit irrelevant. I hope to pass them on to friends in a month or two. What surprised me were the books that I’d bought in previous years knowing I’d be ready for them later, just not yet. Now, I’m ready for them in spades! Yay! That feels like progress. I’m embarrassed to say I found two books that I had two copies of. The extra copies have gone to the book-swap box too. I need to do a better job keeping up with my purchased books!

bookd

After making numerous donations, I’ve trimmed the read books and references I’m keeping. Here’s a portion of those.

Most surprising, I took a stack of books that I don’t feel like I need anymore. Half-way through the year, I decided to stop polishing my novel. I’ve set it aside to focus on things that are more exciting and fresh. My interests have changed a lot since I began the work, and it just doesn’t juice me anymore. Other things have gotten me pretty excited, and I’ve decided to switch gears. I’ve begun writing a non-fiction work, and we’ll see where that takes me. A whole stack of books devoted to fiction writing has now been set aside for that time when the novel gets interesting again. I feel pretty good about shelving those for now; it didn’t make me sad like I expected it to do.

books

old friends

I also took a look at my plans made in January 2015 for my personal business. (That’s the business in which I work for myself – I still work a 40-hour-a-week job working for someone else, too.) I increased my level of business again, but I didn’t do it quite the way I expected to. As I look back at my year’s goals, I realize how much things have changed in the past six months, personally and in my personal business. More and more people are asking me when I expect to begin teaching classes, so I that may emerge in the next year or so.

butterfly cocoons

Some of my projects are empty and spend. Others are coming out of their cocoons; still others are waiting for the right time to emerge.

Bottom line – things have really changed this year, and all for the better! Okay, that’s a bit of an overstatement. My father died this year. I don’t consider that to be a good thing, but it was his choice to stop the chemotherapy. I thought that both continuing and quitting was courageous, and I vowed to support his decision either way. His death facilitated profound healing in the family in rather unexpected ways. Somehow, I think that was something he wanted.

hallway

Each year is like a long hallway of doors. Which ones do I open? Which ones do I close?

Significant change is evident this year in my books, my business, and my future plans. Things have fallen to the wayside and new things have entered. Usually, there isn’t such rapid change in one year, but these changes appear to be here to stay. Farewell 2015 and welcome, 2016!

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  1. Every now and then I consider getting rid of the books I don’t think I’m ever going to read… but then… what if something comes up and I need that specific book? A few years ago, I took a writing class where The Great Gatsby was required reading. Sadly, my high school copy was long gone…

    My bookshelves are a mess.

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    • Thank you. I hope for better springboards for healing, that’s for sure. I hope that your radio silence has been due to family time and activities, and no set-backs for Daisy. I wish you all health and wellness for the new year!

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  2. I love the quotation at the top!

    Funnily enough, my bipeds are talking about sorting out their books. They are taking up far too much space, not to mention the ones stacked in boxes! They are hoping to donate the ones they part with to somewhere they’ll be useful again.

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    • Thank you. I have many more (less photographic) books and they bring me great joy. I don’t find the kindle very satisfying, so they are right for me. You have already published your first book, while mine got put away, do I’m a bit green-eyed looking your direction too! We each have different paths, perfect for us. I hope your 2016 is the best it can be!

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  3. So many people live a while lifetime without learning what you have learned:; to plan your life and to give it periodic review. That is very important. It is the way you know where you have been and where you are going. One you experience, the other you see. Wonderful.
    Mom

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  4. I have been following you for several years. I can’t say how……so don’t ask me. But I can feel/read a difference in the way you blog or write. You always…to me… seemed to be searching. It seems you are coming closer to finding. I am glad to read of the positive changes. 🙂

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